14th's

You're my only sunshine.

2010-06-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

It never comes out right, and when i see you cry, it makes me wanna dieeeeeeee.
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round.
Dawn Then Zhao Geng (L),
The craziest, most retarded person i know, next too me. (: You've always been there for me, be it joyous or filled with sadness. You bring bundles of joy to my heart, the tiniest stupidest things you do like burping? Can make me smile a million miles. You definately know how to cheer me up. Everytime we talk, or i sleep at your house, or when we're bored, we always have something to talk about, no matter what. This post is dedeicated to you. Thanks for caring and extending the helping hand when i need it. Im sorry for what i did in the past. Im absoulutely sorry, everything i did to hurt you, or quarreled with you, or anything that offended you. Im sorry. We're going to start afresh, karma. Everything i do, i do it with you. You know whats my most touching memory of us? Remember we were standing in the rain waiting for a cab, it was cold, wet and discusting. We were drenched. I was cold. You gave me your jacket and covered me with it, and we quarreled for who got the jacket, we even wanted to take out the karaokae sign to cover ourselves, you used your precious tom&jerry tissue to help me wipe all the mud of my legs. I'll always remember that day. Remember we met Zonn after that? And we saw unexpected company, and we went and hide? Hehe. I used to not believe in forever, but after knowing you, you thought me it maybe true.
8months and counting.
DTZY, thanks.
i love you.

Baby its fact.

2010-06-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

Baby its fact,
our love its true,
the way black is black,
and blue is just blue,
our love is true its a matter of fact,
oh and you love me too,
its as simple as that.

Im so glad your back baby. I missed you so much, like how a toddler misses its toy. Your essential in my life. A necessety, and amenetie. Your watching Looney Tunes now, and peeping at my post. :@ We're going shopping today. (y) And my stomach hurts. We slept like pigs today, your a horny bastard you know that? You cant control your feelings. HAHAHA. Im so glad you came back earlier for me. And by the stories you told me, im sure you had a good time on holiday, so thanks you came back for me. Love you manymany.

Hopelessly devoted to you.

2010-06-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

Didnt have the time to online yesterday. So im blogging now.
Yesterday, woke up and checked out of the hotel, went to shop. I bought you a wallet. ^^v Went2 do facial with momma and sis. Ate seafood for dinner. Was bored out of my wits. Slept real early last night, fatigue. :( Had a real horrible nightmare, i was crying in my sleep? I need you there to hug me. :( I missed you so. Woke up at 4++, tried to go back to sleep but couldnt. Evetually did at about 6? THE LETTER O IS SPOILT ON THIS KEYBOARD. And i finally realised how many words have the letter o. Hehe. Woke up around 2pm today, despite my early night of sleep. Am about to go shpping already. (: Will buy mre things4 you alright baby? I cant wait till you get back. Dawn+Zonn+Meixuan are fetching me at the airprt later. and you know something baby? I DONT KNOW WHAT TIMES YOUR FLIGHT OR WHAT TERMINAL YOU ARE IN!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FETCH YOU. :( get back soon, our distance physically is tearing me up inside. I miss you, you know that? :(

But now theres no where to hide,
Since you pushed my lve aside,
Im outta my head,
hopelessly devoted to you.

2010-06-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will."

14th today, our anniversary. We didnt get to celebrate it together. I miss you, you know? I love you, i hope you know too. You're my everything. (: You're my priority. No matter how many times i'd like to try and re-organise and prioritise my life, your still on top of my list. I hope what i did for you was special. And i hope you like it. Im gonna try and blog everday we cant talk. My heart aches, cos its missing something, and that thing is you. Your smile makes my heart light up and melt every single time. Didnt do much today, stayed in the hotel missing you. Its our first mothsary that we aint together. 4th month. (: Wow, soon it'll be 6th then 1st year and son on and so forth.I hope we can last till the very end of time. I wont use the term forever, cos nothing lasts forever. (: Baby, im waiting for you to be back. Im waiting for you to take me somewhere special, do something fun, fulfill your promises, share what we did when we were away. And many other lame things we do with each other. I apologise that i could not be online ytd. There wasnt any connection. I hope your drinking milk and brushing your teeth. (: And not smoking so much. Hope your alright, well and safe now.
Byebye baby.
P.s. i love you.

Thi Rak,

2010-06-01T13:50:00.001+08:00

I have never ever regretted being together with you. But i regretted not treating you better, and changing you as you changed me. Therefore, things got out of hand. Nothing both of us ever expected. My feeling never did fade. It was in fact, stronger then before. I have always loved you. Now, its painful, like a small prick in your heart, which grows with realisation you comprehend it with retaliation. And for a moment of time, your at a loss, and you have finally realized that that thing is gone. Apprehension and not wanting to except the truth. Well, isnt it better to hurt now? Or carry on hurting? Cos' i know we aint gonna make this right, as hard as we try, we just cant seem to make it right. i loved you with all my heart, and nothing ever changed that. Except you&me. You were my sunshine. :) Takecare my loved one.
"Fate brought us together, destiny tore us apart."
I hope you change back, from the moment i first met you. I really hope you change back. Be it together or not. :')

2010-06-01T03:02:00.002+08:00

And i dont know how to hold you, but i want too. :(

"You reap what you sow.
What goes around comes around.
Dont do evil, dont get no evil."

Broken,

2010-05-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

BROKEN.
Dropped off your keys last night,
your front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could melt it.
You took our pictures down,
and you left them on the ground.
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be...
You and me, before it all crashed down.

And i know i never told you,
That i love you,
Now its all to late,
I don't know how to hold you,

But i want to,
I don't want to leave this way,
All that i know is, Broken.

I heard your voice break, when you said:
"Well, I hope you're happy."
Nothing to say, I'll stare straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,

And we talked around the blame,

And the pain of losing.
All the good times lost,
When it all crashed down.

And i know i never told you,
That i love you,
Now its all to late,
I don't know how to hold you,
But i want to,
I don't want to leave this way,
All that i know is, Broken.

Well, i'm here if you need me,

I know you don't believe me.
Well, i'm so sorry,
Foor all the pain i've caused
Hooo-oooooohhhhh...

And i know i never told you,
That i love you,
Now its all too late.
And i don't know how to hold you,

But i want too,
i don't want to leave this way,
All that i know is, Broken.

So into this song now, its a really great song. Theres many emotions in it, all being potrayed out. Yeah, i like it alot. :)

Im sorry i didnt hold you when i had the chance, now you're gone forever. You were a real great friend. One of the best. I knew you for years, and i didnt even have the chance to tell you i love you. I regretted and am very remorseful for not holding you closer when i could. Now, i dont even have the chance. You're gone, forever. I still think about you once in awhile, most parts are fading in my memory. But i know, you have th power to impact me so much, you'll be in my mind&heart forever.
"Your like a River, pulling everything towards you as you flow, as the wind blows. Flowing with you, in a big open space, under the big, vast open sky. You will always be the river."

Hm, didnt do much recently. I think im becoming eccentric? :O
My temper is getting more and more out of control, as days goes by.
Even though there a need or a point for me, to get mad.
Got into a fist-fight with you, resulting into ugly ends. Due to my our childish and superficial acts. Thinking about it now, it gets more and more stupid everytime i think about it.
It also resultted in, both of us, not having a phone.
I apologise for my erratic behaviour, been really very vexed.
We somewhat show a repertoire. Fight, Very bad fight, No Fight, Amiable, Love.
Is that what this is all about?
I really want to venture out of this circle.
But unscrupulous bastards like yourself, will never understand. You dont want to change, you dont even want to 'try' to change. You will never know how that makes me feel. Are we really about to drift apart to an abrupt end? Bcos' thats not what i want.

You told me you wouldnt play, that superficial game of yours.
But you did.
You promised me a million things.
But you didn't do any of it.
You said you would never lie to me.
But you did.
You told me you would accompany me there.
But you didn't, instead you went with your friends?
You told me you understood your mistakes.
But you didn't.
Your childish ways are driving me nuts. I have no more energy to care about you. I only have energy to care about me now. Is your mouth a constant lying machine? Or am i just a money machine/atm to you? You are selfish.
If this continues any longer, im sorry, but i dont think i can handle it no more. Im sorry.
Your leaving in a few days time, gonna miss you. We're inseperable, now your leaving what am i supposed to do?
Erratic much. :O
Lets just drink and club to forget everything. :)

Drift, Apart. To an abrupt end?

2010-05-25T15:16:00.000+08:00

Baby, we're moving further and further apart as days go by. Sometimes, i thought 'we'd love each other more, as each day passes.' But why is it that its so hard for me to communicate with you nowadays? Hiding things from me, lying to me. Both of us are at fault here, im not just saying you. Will we be as close as we used to? I really do love you, with all my heart. You are special, something that stands out. You've changed, i've changed. We both did change. Be it good or bad. You're leaving soon. I love you, come back fast. :* Love you, makmak. Sleeptight baby! :)

Pulau Ubin Trip.

2010-05-06T14:01:00.000+08:00

Me and my girlfriend have been planning a pulau ubin trip for ages, and im glad we finally have a chance to go there. So today, i'll be talking about my trip to pulau ubin.

On the first of May, Saturday, me and my girlfriend woke up at an estimate of 10am. We hurriedly did the final packing and checked if we took everything. Her mother then sent us to changi interchange, where we could take boats to pulau ubin. It was feeling hot, and had no sign of rain that day. We took a ferry, costing $2.50 per person for a 15 minute boat ride to the nearby village of singapore, pulau ubin. It wasn't very far from Singapore, the scenery on the boat was beautiful.

In a short 15 minutes, we reached Pulau Ubin and were ready to embark on a beautiful journey through the small island and nature retreat of Pulau Ubin. Pulau Ubin is very different from Singapore, It portrays Singapore in the early and late 1990's, probably our parents generation. Everyone in pulau ubin still live in kampongs!

And there me and my girlfriend were there, Pulau Ubin. Having the early afternoon sun being lenient on us, as its sun-rays shorne through the clouds. Upon reaching Pulau Ubin, we took a van which costs $6 to reach our resort, celestial resort.
We then checked in and left some of the heavier stuff at the resort, taking only the necessary equipments for biking, and checked out the vincity. We then walked back to the main village of Pulau Ubin and had a seafood fried rice for lunch! It was absoulutely delicious, Pulau Ubin is really famour for their seafood.
After having a light lunch, me and my girlfriend decided to rent bikes and travel pulau ubin as there were no public transport, and expensieve for a guided tour. We rented our bikes, $8 per person for 1 whole day!
Next, we travelled to Wet land, a feature of Pulau Ubin. It is where many creatures such as the mudskipper, mud lobster and many more live! It was a really beautiful place, nothing you can find in Singapore!

The mangrove swamp.

The sea at pulau ubin.
It was quite sad that by the time me and my girlfriend got there, probable 3 or 4 pm in the afternoon, it was already high tide and we could not enjoy the magnifience of wet land and see the creatures living in the sea, oh well there is always next time.
We then rode our bikes as fast as we could, as we wanted to cover the whole island before sun down! It was hot and we needed to drink loads of water or else we would suffer from dehydration, and there were many tough conditions such as, rocky roads and dirty paths. One time, we even had to get off our bikes and push it up hill! But it was all worth it, when we reached the top of the bike mountain, the view was magnificent, it was beautiful!

Isn't it just breath taking!

Enjoying the scenery!

We rode back to our resort after upscaling the 'bike mountain', we boiled water and had a nice short rest, before travelling out again! After having a nice drink of cold water and resting, we headed out again. We rode our bikes. By around 6pm, we headed to the main village to return our bicycles. We shopped nearby for some snacks which we could eat in the night and aimed to head back to the resort before night fall as there were no street lights. Although it was a tough and long walk, we made it back before nightfall and had a nice, long, refreshing shower! Me and my girlfriend talked throughout the night as we ate tidbits and watched movies!
The next morning, we woke up at 8am, going to the nearby hornbill restaurant for breakfast. Breakfast consisted of local food, much similar to singapore. After our breakfast, we packed up, had a short nap and checked out.
We then on our journey home. We walked out of the resort, the sun was shining down heavily. It was hot and we forgot to bring water. After walking for approximately 20 minutes, a nice van driver offered to send us back. We kindly accepted his offer. The aircon was absoulutely refreshing! And we reached the main vaillage in 5 minutes!
Before we knew it, we were on the ferry back to Singapore.

I had loads of fun on that small island of Pulau Ubin, and i realized how fortunate we are to live in upgraded Singapore, while people on Pulau Ubin dont even have air-condition or high rise flats and shopping centers. Having a simple bicycle there is considered a luxury, and yet in Singapore we are complaining about the public transport and asking for cars. Sometimes even reluctant to take cabs. And yet thinking, we were once like that? Its so hard to imagine. People on Pulau Ubin are really friendly as well, as it is a rural environment and much differnt from ours here. Many villagers know each other, with a small population of 45 families living there. It made me realized how we shouldnt take things for granted as there are people who dont have what we have. It was overall a really new and thrilling experience for me.

2010-04-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

(I look so !@#$%^&)

Ice creammmmmmmm, He called correctly. :( I miss baby so much. So angry at him today, dont know why suddenly so guailan. :@:@ He came to find me and Dawn.TZYYYYY, at Plaza Sing today. And now he wants to test me. :@ Im going to call his handphone. I just hope that im on time yoz. Break? Dont break? LOL!!! I still love him, no matter what. :) BECAUSE, HE IS MY BABY. I want to marry him, no matter what people say, puppy love? Maybe, but everything needs time. Through time, it will become true love. Time, its really important. Make use of it. Time is a judgement of everything, time will prove our love. :) You really changed me alot, and i can see the effort you put in. Deleted previous post, cos' idkkkkkkkk? LOL! My blog is always dying. Lets see how much i'll post. :x
School > Henderson > TBH > Plaza Sing > Homed.
Thanks Dawn.TZY for today, im so sorry i always dua you. :D